The End

I cannot believe that it has only been three days since the finale of LOST had aired. It feels like a lifetime ago when Jack “let go” and was able to move on. For the last couple of days i have been doing a lot of thinking about the finale and the more i think about it, the more i loved it.

While i sat and watched the finale i was loving every minute of it. I loved the action, mythology and adventure. I loved every single reunion. But the whole time I had this suspicion that things were too good to be true and whatever was going to happen at the end was going to be tough to swallow. I was right.

The scene with Jack and his father was incredibly jarring, but I have thought about it and I have come to the realization that it was supposed to be. As a man of science, Jack had to take a leap of faith and accept that he was dead and had to move on. It was very challenging to Jack as it was me. If i were in his shoes i would have the same reaction, but i would have to accept the fact that i don’t make the rules. Even though i don’t believe in an afterlife, i have to accept that there is a greater power that i can’t control. In the world of LOST, the writers make the rules and it is up to the characters, as well as the audience to deal with it.

I am sure that it is tough for the audience to accept this outcome, but wether we agree with it or not, there is nothing we can do to change the fact that we are not in control of the show, or our own destiny. We all have hopes and dreams of what the future has in store for us, but we don’t have the ability to write it ourselves. We have to be content with what we have and who we have to share it with.

Leading up to the finale, people kept talking about “the answers”. Were we going to get all the answers? Can the producers give us all the answers? Much like life, we do not get the all the answers. We have to figure things out ourself , take what we have been given and use those to make our lives complete. Lost is a puzzle as is life. We may not get everything we want, but we can take what we are given and make the best of it. If Lost gave me every little answer all wrapped up in a tiny bow, it would insult my intelligence. There is a saying, “Give me a fish and I eat for a day. Teach me to fish and i eat for a lifetime”. Why would i want Lost to give me all the answers? Lost has made me think for the last six seasons. It is my favorite show of all time and i didn’t want it to end. With this finale, it gave me the ability to think about it forever as opposed to telling me how this all ends. Lost is not over. It still lives on in my mind. I am still trying to piece together the puzzle. I find that the answers that i create for myself are much better than the answers that could have been told to me.

The end does not matter. We all wonder about death, but what Lost showed me is that it is not about waiting for the inevitable. It’s all about enjoying what little time you have on your own island and sharing that time with the ones you love.

The Best Night of My Life

A while back, Stevi and I were invited by Beth and Jorge to be their guests to The Lost Symphony at Royce Hall on the UCLA campus. The event was to celebrate the show LOST and the music of academy award winning composer Michael Giacchino. As you may know, i am a huge fan of film music, have been my whole life, but more importantly i have been a fan of Michael Giacchino since 1999’s Medal of Honor. The fact that this was a film score event as well as a LOST even, this was definitely two worlds that i admire greatly coming together for the most perfect night ever.

Me and Stevi met up with Justin and Kathy and headed to Royce Hall. When we showed up, we picked up our tickets as well as our VIP wristband (pictured above). As you can see, the ticket was a boarding pass and the wristband had the hieroglyphics from the Swan Station’s countdown clock. As soon as i got these items, i got incredibly excited. This was more than just a mere concert, this was in fact going to be a celebration.

As we walked into the hall I was immediately recognized by Jo Opinionated. Talk about awesome!! As we walked down to the front of the hall i noticed that some of the seats that were surrounding us had place cards on them. The place cards had the name and the photo the person who would be sitting in the seats. Directly behind me was the place card for Malcolm David Kelley, Daniel Roebuck and Daniel Dae Kim . Yes, that is correct, i had a closer seat than at least three of the cast members of LOST. The show was about to begin so i sat down. Unfortunately, my pants pocket got snagged on the arm of the chair and ripped the seam in my pants. DAMMIT. Oh well, my jacket covered it up.

So Damon and Carlton came out and introduced the cast members in attendance. It was a pretty crazy list: Daniel Dae Kim, Josh Holloway, Jorge Garcia, Michael Emerson, Henry Ian Cusick, Harold Perrineau, Nestor Corbonell, Ian Somerhalder, Malcolm David Kelley, Daniel Roebuck, William Mapother, Rebecca Mader, L. Scott Caldwell, Sonya Walger, Titus Welliver, Lance Reddick, Francois Chau, Kim DickensSterling Beaumon and Jeremy Davies.

After the cast left the stage, Damon and Carlton introduced Michael Giacchino and the performance started. I am so glad that Beth was kind enough to give me a tissue prior to the show, because i knew i was going to get misty-eyed at one point or another and i was right. The performance was beautiful and moving. In between cues, various cast members read messages from a bottle, from survivors of the island who’s stories had yet to be told.

The music was played over still images from the show’s 6 season run. Giacchino conducted the orchestra as they played many of the key themes from the show. One of my favorite pieces was the “Jacob Theme” played along side “Locke’s Theme”. It was a great piece! At the end of the show, they played “Parting Worlds“, with a montage of footage from the highs and lows of the LOST story all leading to the footage of Michael, Walt, Jin and Sawyer leaving the island on the raft. It was pretty moving.

After a long standing ovation, Giacchino came back out in a Dharma Initiative jumpsuit that said ‘Conductor’ on the back. He then performed his theme for the Academy Award winning score to Pixar’s “Up”. Of course I had to break out my tissue yet again.

The concert had concluded and even though it was already an incredible night, it was far from over. The producers came out and brought up some members of the production team, including writers Edward Kitsis and Adam Horowitz (LOST, TRON: Legacy). Edward and Adam introduced the penultimate episode of the series, “What They Died For”, an episode that was premiered, in its entirety,  for the audience in attendance.

There is not much that i can say about the episode, other than the fact that it was chock full of LOST goodness! There are so many twists and turns, it made my head spin. This episode also had my favorite scene of the entire season. The scene was so badass and amazing, i could not wait to see what would happen next. When you watch it, you will know which scene i am talking about. The sounds system was loud, the audience reaction was amazing and the episode brought the house down!!

The night was already so amazing. I thought that I would never come down from cloud 9, but the funny thing is, the night was only half way over!

After the end of the episode, we all immediately stood up and were escorted into the back stage area. After we walked past the security employees, we walked out onto a rooftop patio and were greeted by a full bar and all the creative forces behind LOST. I felt like Charlie Bucket walking into the Chocolate Room in Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory. I am sure my eyes were as big as saucers!

As a fan of the show, i felt like i didn’t deserve to be at this event. Everyone from Damon and Carlton to Brad Bird (d. The Iron Giant, The Incredibles, Ratatouille) were in attendance, not to mention all of the cast members mentioned above. It was incredibly surreal.

My favorite encounter was meeting Edward Kitsis. I got his attention and waved him over to me. He obliged. I let him know that i was kicking myself big time for not wearing my 89 Forever pin. His eyes lit up! I told him about going to San Francisco for the day just to see the “Alan Bradley” speech. His eyes lit up again as he told me the story of being in a hotel room that night with Bruce Boxleitner and Cindy Morgan, going over his script for that event. Stevi was standing with me while we talked and i let Edward know that she was not a fan of the original. He did not take offense and told her that he hoped TRON Legacy wouldn’t make her as sleepy. It was so amazing!

I met so many cool people. I had such a blast hanging out with Justin, Kathy and Stevi the whole night. We were all geeking out pretty hard and the drinking only made it more difficult to hide our excitement.

I cannot thank Jorge and Beth enough for allowing us to be a part of such an amazing event! I will remember this night for the rest of my life!!